The Struggle 

Hi everyone out there, 

I guess if you have been following my blog you have seen that part of me that is living in the past clinging between human emotions, sincerity and psychology. This is the part of me that I wish I can just be my entire life but hey that brings no money and feed no mouth and as Mama said I am 20 I need to start making a family feed my kids and make sure I get a husband engineer or a doctor who gets paid tons of money so that we have loads of money cause money matters  a lot and I have to appreciate money, Since I decided that I cant seek someone because of their money I have decided to make the money  myself so that I can seek intellectual.people. So in that process I am now a computer science major and a swimmer hoping that I will be able to Coach and program for a job and hopefully get enough money to make a family. 
So, in the process I have learned so much math that I sometimes despite my love for literature and language I start thinking of life in terms of math equations and logical computational processes instead of poetry and sophisticated Arabic words.

So I have made an equation for life which I am pretty sure someone out there has thought of it but anyways it goes like this:

If the stuff that matters to you are x, y and z
so for an example:
x=family
y= school
z= work 

I know that I can think of as many important things that matter to me in life as there is alphabetical letters but will just restrain it for x, y and z for the sake of simplicity.  

so lets assume that we start life with an equation that looks like:

x+y+z=0

Now your parameters can duplicate, triplicate or multiply crazily, it can even get raised to powers and then the aspect of life represented by the parameter can get exponentially better or it can get a negative sign before it or negative powers leading this aspect of life to go spirally downward.

Now looking at the equation, you might have already noticed that I summed it to a zero. Well, zero means balance. Zero means that I do realize that this parameter with a negative power is balanced out with all those parameters that I have with a positive multiple. 

Another reason why this equation is summed to Zero is because theoretically life is fair and we can all be equally happy and satisfied but with different parameters, multiples and powers that all sum to Zero. 

I thin with more CS classes I will be able to come out with a crazy life theory with CS terminology :D
Oh my brain is struggling so bad to balance out between humaninty and science and that is why it keep coming up with this weird stuff. 

:D Will be blogging more about that side of me